In 2011, I went on a month long Yoga Teacher Training Course. One week in, I felt completely relaxed. What's more, I knew that a week later, nothing would have changed. I would likely feel a little fitter, a little stronger and a little healthier, but no new stress would have entered. My return to work was sufficiently far away that I didn't have to do the emotional preparation needed to dive back in. The relaxation went deep into my bones. Since stopping full time work and shifting attention to more 'micro-ambitious' goals, that relaxation has become part of my life-style.
Ten Pin Yoga
(me far left)
I am slowly re-entering the world of making money with the skills I have that people are willing to pay for. I feel a little like Forrest Gump running back into the forest to collect the wounded. The thing I am going to have to work hard at remembering is to be a 'half-hearted fanatic'. I am no hero. I don't want to set myself up for failure by pretending to be one. Each step forward is only worth while if it is a sustainable one. I don't believe the current working environment is sustainable. I think it creates time-impoverished specialists who don't allocate enough energy to the people they love, and the communities that support them.
Run Forrest Run
Fortunately I have wonderful friends and family, and lots of people who are willing (and eager) to tell me when I am wrong, and when I am losing my way (and to cheer when I am all good). I am stubborn, ignorant and noisy... but I promise to listen even when it is uncomfortable. Listening doesn't always mean changing direction, but I will do it deeply and honestly.
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