From 2014 to 2021, the main source of my income was no longer a salary. I stripped back my spending dramatically, and was attempting to live off my Engine. Aiming to spend less on average, than my Capital made. Straight out of the Financial Independence, Retire Early” F.I.R.E. playbook.
It meant giving up certain things (e.g. I had a room at Wimbledon Art Studios for four years) and reducing others (e.g. cheaper rent, less take-out, cheaper holidays). When stripping back your spending, you learn more from those with less. It is eye-opening to see what people, without options, get by on.
Still, I exceeded on the spending side and my Capital was far noisier than a salary. Imagine pay day coming, and your boss asking for a deposit!
In theory, I could have run my Engine down to zero. In reality, my “internal Engine” wouldn’t go to zero. I wouldn’t be starting from scratch. The thought experiment of if every *thing* was taken from you, what would you have? Relationships, skills, knowledge, social capital, and the opportunities presented by being part of the community you are a part of. You can also build the capacity to start again with more ease, if you need to. Even if the situation is very different.
Like rewriting an essay you lose when your computer crashes. Second time, you may be more effective. The first course I repeated at university, was ironically called “Survival Models” (previously called Mortality). The second time I did it, I had the big picture, and suddenly things made sense. Helping people one page behind, is also a great way to take your next step.
When I decided to go back to work, it was partly because I no longer had confidence that my Engine was sustainable. I could repair and rebuild it better with the stability of a salary as support. I could also repeat something I had done before (working!), and help people one page behind.