It’s dangerous if you need, rather than want, the music to keep on playing. One of the challenges with work relying on any one particular individual is we only get concertina leave. Leave can become the thing we work towards, a reward for all the energy we need to focus on delivering. Leave becomes a glimpse of an alternative reality. You take some time to wind down from work. Then, as soon as you wind down it is almost time to mentally prepare for starting up again.
If you do “worry work”. If the kind of work you do is not the kind that you leave in the office. If it is the kind you carry with you all the time, because you are solving complicated problems. It can be a mental challenge to avoid living with those problems 24-7.
What was fascinating with the Yoga Teacher Training course I went on was that it was, a full, four weeks. I started feeling relaxed, but going to layers and levels of relaxation that I had never gone to. I wasn’t stressed, but I also knew with a deep confidence that I wouldn’t be stressed in two weeks' time. I am also a creature of routine in a world that is too chaotic for that to normally be possible. The course was in an alternative construction of reality.
I was waking up on rhythm. Going to bed on rhythm. Eating on rhythm. I was also exercising twice a day, eating well, and in a beautiful environment. It was a simple, inexpensive, bubble. There was nothing flashy about it. We were engaging and talking about stuff that really seemed to matter and unpacking the world. It was a beautiful time.
It shifted something deep inside me. I had warned a friend to come get me if I didn’t come back. You hear these stories of people going off to Ashrams, never coming back, and cutting themselves off from their communities. I did go back. I did re-engage, but it had a lasting effect on how I saw things and what I thought was important.
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